Thursday, July 22, 2010


So remember Mr. Attractive? I was really attracted to this guy and most specially after my friend told me more about him. So we exchanged a couple of emails but thats it. I was disappointed a bit because I really liked what I got to find out about him. Apparently, his friend told my friend that there is no point to getting to know each other more because he is in Canada and I am not, that really sucks. Thank goodness I read He's Just That Not Into Me, coz I dont need to figure out why...HES JUST THAT NOT INTO ME!!! My Meryl Streep song is so befitting my sentiment right now!

So it became whats wrong with me? It really makes me wonder. Its like everything about me becomes inconvenient, my height, 5'6 ( too tall for Asians, not too tall for everyone else), my built( I have hips that dont lie =), my religion(I am Catholic), my career choice, my race, my taste in clothing (men think I am high maintenance), my confidence, my humor, my personality( I tend to be likeable but when my date's friends love me more than him, the guy tends to just hate it!

I seriously dont know what to do anymore! I am not socially inept. I am very presentable and I know how to listen. Why havent I found the one yet??? GOD WHATS YOUR PLAN FOR ME???

Ladies, any guess as to why? I seriously am feeling my singlehood right now. I am actually in a state of panic. It is actually like a Carrie moment, realizing and fearing if I will be alone...I dont want to be alone!

ok so I just needed to vent. But seriously ladies, I need your advice! I am attracted to Mr. Attractive but I dont want to run after him. But why do other women set their eyes on someone and they really get out there to get it and it works! I cant!!! Should I? Or should I just move on to the next. But I want to get to know him better though. I dont know... I am really torn. My being coy about things hasnt gotten me anywhere.

Ladies, opinion please!!! I know you probably are tired hearing my stories but a sister really needs your help...pretty please???!!!


Hi Ladies! A friend of mine sent me this and I just found it very helpful. I hope I dont get any violent reactions from those who dont believe...I do and I want to share this to those who do as well. Have a great weekend ladies!

Most people think they don’t know how to pray. They think that prayer is another language that they must learn. The truth is, we were created and designed for fellowship with God, so prayer is a NATURAL thing to do. It only becomes difficult when we complicate it for ourselves.


Prayer, in its most simple form is you speaking to God in your own words, and communicating with Him. God, your Father, is waiting for you to communicate with Him and make known your feelings, desires and needs. You can go to Him freely with your difficulties and problems, in good times and in bad.

Prayer is not doing something, it is being with SOMEONE. Genesis 3:8 “Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as He was walking in the garden in the cool of the day.

Prayer is a continuous awareness of the presence of God
Prayer is fellowshipping with the Father – The God who is more than enough.
Develop your fellowship with the Father through frequent prayer, and not just when you are in trouble!
Prayer is not a ritual; it is the expression of your relationship with God.

Don’t worry about anything; instead go to God in prayer and with a thankful attitude with your problems and needs. He will fill you with His peace. (Philippians 4:6-7)

Every parent waits excitedly for the day when their child will first begin to talk to them. In the same way, God is waiting for you now to talk to Him. He longs to meet your needs, not only in material possessions, but emotionally and spiritually too. Tell God how much you love Him. Tell Him how wonderful you think He is. Express your gratefulness to Him in your own way. (John 15:7)


Forgive before you pray.
Pray to the Father in the name of Jesus.
Believe that you receive when you pray.
Depend on the Holy Spirit in prayer.
Pray the prayer of intercession.
Build your spirit man up by praying in the Holy Spirit.


Pray constantly and fervently. (Colossians 4:2,12)
Pray sincerely. (Psalm 17:1)
Pray with faith. (James 5:15-16)
Pray with the help of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 8:26)
Pray to the Father in the Name of Jesus. (John 16:23,24), since He is the way to the Father. (John 14:6; 1 Timothy 2:5).

Pray according to God’s will. (1 John 5:14; Jeremiah 1:12)
Do not be unsure of what you want from God (double-minded), rather be specific. (James 1:6-8)


God’s will to be done … in your life, in your family, in your church, in your city, in your nation, in the whole earth.
Matthew 6:10 “Your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.”
Provision … personal and family needs to be met.
Matthew 6:11 “Give us today our daily bread.”
Forgiveness … receive forgiveness from God and forgive those who have offended you.
Matthew 6:12 “Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.”
Victory over temptation … and protection from the devil’s schemes.
Matthew 6:13 “And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one.”

Without a doubt, YES! The more specific your prayers, the more specific the answers will be. The secret is to pray according to God’s WILL. We know His will by knowing His word. Therefore, as we pray according to His word, we know He will answer.

1 John 5:14,15 “This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us, and if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have what we asked of Him.”

REMEMBER: There are three ways in which God answers your prayers: Yes
No, and

Pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you. (Matthew 5:44; Luke 6:28)
When you pray, don’t pray to be seen, but pray to the Father in secret. (Matthew 6:5-6)
Don’t pray using vain repetitions, expecting to be heard because of the volume of your prayer. (Matthew 6:7)
Pray to the Lord of the harvest, to send for the labourers into His harvest. (Matthew 9:38; Luke 10:2)
Watch and pray, so that you do not enter into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh in weak. (Matthew 26:41; Mark 14:38; Luke 22:40,46)

Whatever you desire, when you pray, believe that you receive it, and you shall have it. (Mark 11:24)
Pray always, and do not fail (in heart) or become weary. (Luke 18:1)
Do not pray to exalt yourself. (Luke 18:10-14)
We shall pray to the Father in Jesus’ name, and the Father Himself will answer. Jesus will not ask on our behalf. (John 16 26-27)


Who God is – Your heavenly Father.
Who you are – righteous in Christ, Children of the Most High God.
Who your enemy is – satan.
How to praise and worship God.


Be specific about what you want from God. Find scriptures that clearly promise these things, and write them down. James 1:6-8.

Ask God for the things you want and believe that you have them. Speak the Word into the situation you are facing. Mark 11:23-27; Proverbs 4:20-22.

Let every thought and desire agree (believe) that you have what you ask.
Guard against thoughts and words that are contrary to the Word of God which is relevant to what you are praying for. Philippians 4:8.

Meditate constantly on the scriptures that promise you the answer to your prayer. Joshua 1:1; Proverbs 4:20-22.
Think of the goodness, love and mercy of God. Count your blessings and your faith will grow.
Start praising and thanking God, OUT LOUD, for answering your prayers.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Bethenny Getting Married

So I watched BGM and I just love it! She gives me hope that wishes can come true. First of all, I think she is an amazing woman. It really made me wonder why she was single for a long time and why her ex never proposed to her. Then she met her husband and it all made sense. In God's time, things will fall into place. I wish it will for me as well. I know there are people who end up alone in life...I dont want to be that woman. How nice it would be to find someone as loving and supportive as Bethenny's husband! I know he's one of a kind and wow he is also handsome! So yeah, I am just now drinking a glass of wine and dreaming that someday I will be as happy as she is. I want to be able to soon say that I am having the best time of my life. Until then, I will just keep on praying that it will happen.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

He's Just Not That Into Me!!!

So after Mr. Wonderful, I decided to read the book He's Just Not That Into You! I have read it before but reading it again just puts everything in a different light!

It is amazing how this book does a clear cut question and answer of common situations women go through. Yes, I should have memorized this book. I think I just might! hahaha There are of course exceptions but to be honest ladies, it all makes sense! The strangest thing is that men give mixed signals just as much as women do. I mean come on! Is there a simpler manual out there?

I have learned a lot from the book. I have made many common errors...yikes! I will try to unlearn bad behavior.

I usually make it easy for the guy to figure out I like him when I feel like he likes me. I respond to emails, texts, phone calls. You name it, I respond. I learned that we shouldnt! We should keep the men guessing and wondering if we are interested! Geez! I mean why waste time? But ok, I will start playing the game. I will not, from now on, allow the guy to sense that I am interested until...does anyone know?

Why cant it just be easy? Some people do have it easy. Meet a guy, fall inlove instantly and be in a relationship. Then before you know it, they get married, have kids and live happily ever after...wait am I awake or am I in "ideal land" I guess I am in "ideal land". In reality finding a partner in life is very difficult. Even after the wedding, it still is a constant game of maintaining desire and love. Otherwise one person turns the other way.

So yes, I am now officially lonely as the book said I would feel after learning to recognize red flags. So the problem now is how do I get out of this loneliness soon. Yes they say its better to be single but boy does it feel good to be in a relationship.

Thats all I want. It would be nice to be in a stable, long term relationship soon. Still praying ladies! Dont forget to include me in yours, maybe God will hear it =)

Thanks for you time!

Sunday, July 11, 2010


Why is it always hard to break routine? I had been used to be bombarded with constant texts from Mr. Wonderful. Now it has completely stopped. Dont get me wrong, I think the turn of events is a blessing in disguise. I havent fallen for him. I just got used to the attention. So now, it just feels so lonely not to have that routine, that attention. There has always been hesitation from the beginning so I know that it wasnt meant to happen. I am merely expressing that I am quite sad that God hasnt sent the one best suited for me. I have been and still am waiting!

I believe though that things happen for a reason and nothing is ever an accident. So maybe God is paving the way for me to be with "the one" I do hope so. Ladies, for those who believe, please include me in your prayers. I really, really want to meet the one God has made for me soon. I want to feel love again =(

Yes, I am quite feeling lonely. It is not that I miss Mr. Wonderful, I havent seen him in three weeks so it definitely isnt that. i just wonder whats next for me. Who is it? When will it happen?

I know its so obvious that I am not in the mood to write coz this sounds a bit crappy. Thanks though for listening. I really needed to vent.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010


I am soooo PMSing right now! I was about to go to bed when Mr. Wonderful sent me a text that he just got home from going out with his friends. So we exchanged texts asking each other how each one's day went when I got a "I had a great time! We should go out again soon!" then " oops sorry that was supposed to be for my friend, I need to get some sleep!" . So thats the end of that! I just texted him back " glad you had a great time. hope you can go out with your friend again soon. im doing well thanks. getting ready to get back home." No response after that. So there goes that chapter in my life. Goodbye Mr. Wonderful! I know it doesnt seem fair because I did also meet Mr. Attractive right? But if you ladies have only seen Mr. Wonderful, you wouldnt think he can hurt a fly...but hey I think his wife divorced him due to infidelity. So I guess I do need to stay away. God is good for letting me get away while I could and early enough to get away scratch free. It fizzled down as fast as it bubbled up.

Is this PMS? Maybe but the facts are not part of it. I therefore am, on to the next chapter in my life!

God is good...ALWAYS!

PMS anyone?

I really hate PMSing! Do any of you suffer from really bad PMS? I DO! I get lonely and sappy! I really hate it! Everything that bothers me gets magnified a hundredfold! I honestly dont get why we suffer and men dont! I guess they do when they are bothered by the change in behavior. It is amazing how it really does change behavior! So now, beside the fact that I am extremely feeling singlehood and the solitude it comes with, having PMS makes me want to really cry over it!!! Ayayay! I hope it goes away soon because it really feels so crappy to feel sappy!

Lyric of the day: Love wont let me wait: I need to have you next to me in more ways than wont let me wait!

Yikes I know sappy! Blame it on the hormones!!! Sorry ladies! Just needed to vent my sappy mood.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010


hello ladies! Hope you all had a good 4th of July weekend. So here it goes... the whole time I was away, Mr. Wonderful was communicating with me. Initially it was friendly until it became more of expressing that he liked me and then he started to make plans on me meeting his mom....HOLD UP, WAIT A MINUTE...Did you just say meet your mom???? I declined! I mean it may be a casual thing for him but isnt this a reflection of how he doesnt think things through? In two weeks I met the kids then two weeks after I got an invite to meet his mom! Whats next? a ring? That would be nice...just kidding. I dont know! Now I am scared that this is just a manic face on his part. Im worried that it will fizz down just as fast as it bubbled up. So im coming back Friday. He then invited me to spend a weekend with him and the kids out of town...WOAA I declined. I am soooo confused. This guy is intelligent, and still young. I dont get where he is coming up with these moves that just blows my mind coz I am having a hard time analyzing it. Does this guy like me or the idea of me being a replacement? I am soooo scared! As for Mr. Attractive, he went on vacation the day after we saw each other. It was a scheduled vacation so I didnt get to see him after that evening. He just got back today and havent heard from him so I am guessing thats that.

I miss having someone to love and be loved!!! God please send me what Im looking for today! =) You never know ladies, maybe God can hear me screaming =) In the meantime, here's a picture from my trip.