Saturday, November 13, 2010

Thanksgiving outfit

Ladies, hello! Hope all is well with you. I need help. I am looking for Thanksgiving outfits, well its basically what to wear for the entire weekend...HELP!!! I am trying to impress someone so please help! Thanks!

Friday, October 29, 2010

faux fur fun time

Before all the stressful time of surgery. I was able to unwind with my best friend in a spa and winery in Canada. I just absolutely loved their wine! I wore this faux fur vest which I thought was just fun! Thought Id share my pick for fun faux fur for this fall.
Have a great weekend ladies! Happy Halloween!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

thank you!

I just wanted to share that my aunt had her lung surgery and through prayers, she is now cancer free! No need for radiation or chemotherapy! Thank you for everyone who said a prayer! I know God heard us all! THANK YOU FRIENDS! GOD BLESS!

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Please pray for a good prognosis

Please pray for a good prognosis for my aunt. We are in Houston now. She had her biopsy done today at MD Anderson and we are awaiting the pathology results. I believe in collective prayer. Please pray with me. Thank you ladies!

Thursday, August 19, 2010


Hello Ladies. I am once again asking for your prayers. My aunt has been stressed out lately because she is worried that the procedure to biopsy or totally remove the mass is too invasive. She has been told the possible complications from the procedure and she freaked out. She started smoking again today. I just found out and I am totally stressed out! I feel like I will be the one to die first from a stroke because I am just so stressed out from her actions. I understand she is just terrified and smoking always calmed her down which is obviously a learned behavior. I just hope that she realizes the mistake she has done and stops smoking! The countdown starts back to 0. There needs to be at least 8 weeks of being smoke free before they will do anything invasive. I dont know I am just really so disappointed! I am more terrified! It is ultimately her decision but I am just falling apart right now because I cant take the attitude and behavior she has. So ladies, please pray for her and for me!

Pray that she realizes that life is too precious to just toy with it like that and that she quits smoking and gets the procedure done so that her life will be prolonged. Long enough to see me get married and have children. Please also pray for strength for me because I am so stressed out. I am so scared of losing her!

Ladies please pray for her and me. Thank you so much!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010


Huge designers for Target on Gilt on Friday, 12 noon EST. I suggest sign up now ladies so you will be on time by noon coz Im sure there will be amazing items! I am not sure how low the prices will be but I cant wait coz I only get leftover items when I search for them at my local Target's hoping that I will get my hands on great stuff! I hope you will as well!

Here's another great sale for the L.A.M.B fans... I adore Gwen Stefani!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010


Hello ladies. For those who believe in collective prayer, please join me in praying for my aunt. She is a cancer survivor but has been a chronic smoker and a single pulmonary nodule has been found(lung mass) She has been cleared to undergo biopsy which is a good thing. At least there is a good chance that they can remove it and maybe just undergo chemo/radiation or both. Please pray for a good prognosis. I believe in prayers. I would still love for her to see me get married and have kids. She has never been married and has no children so she considers me like a her own. I am really worried. Please ladies, I beg you to say a prayer for her healing.

Thank you!

Thursday, July 22, 2010


So remember Mr. Attractive? I was really attracted to this guy and most specially after my friend told me more about him. So we exchanged a couple of emails but thats it. I was disappointed a bit because I really liked what I got to find out about him. Apparently, his friend told my friend that there is no point to getting to know each other more because he is in Canada and I am not, that really sucks. Thank goodness I read He's Just That Not Into Me, coz I dont need to figure out why...HES JUST THAT NOT INTO ME!!! My Meryl Streep song is so befitting my sentiment right now!

So it became whats wrong with me? It really makes me wonder. Its like everything about me becomes inconvenient, my height, 5'6 ( too tall for Asians, not too tall for everyone else), my built( I have hips that dont lie =), my religion(I am Catholic), my career choice, my race, my taste in clothing (men think I am high maintenance), my confidence, my humor, my personality( I tend to be likeable but when my date's friends love me more than him, the guy tends to just hate it!

I seriously dont know what to do anymore! I am not socially inept. I am very presentable and I know how to listen. Why havent I found the one yet??? GOD WHATS YOUR PLAN FOR ME???

Ladies, any guess as to why? I seriously am feeling my singlehood right now. I am actually in a state of panic. It is actually like a Carrie moment, realizing and fearing if I will be alone...I dont want to be alone!

ok so I just needed to vent. But seriously ladies, I need your advice! I am attracted to Mr. Attractive but I dont want to run after him. But why do other women set their eyes on someone and they really get out there to get it and it works! I cant!!! Should I? Or should I just move on to the next. But I want to get to know him better though. I dont know... I am really torn. My being coy about things hasnt gotten me anywhere.

Ladies, opinion please!!! I know you probably are tired hearing my stories but a sister really needs your help...pretty please???!!!


Hi Ladies! A friend of mine sent me this and I just found it very helpful. I hope I dont get any violent reactions from those who dont believe...I do and I want to share this to those who do as well. Have a great weekend ladies!

Most people think they don’t know how to pray. They think that prayer is another language that they must learn. The truth is, we were created and designed for fellowship with God, so prayer is a NATURAL thing to do. It only becomes difficult when we complicate it for ourselves.


Prayer, in its most simple form is you speaking to God in your own words, and communicating with Him. God, your Father, is waiting for you to communicate with Him and make known your feelings, desires and needs. You can go to Him freely with your difficulties and problems, in good times and in bad.

Prayer is not doing something, it is being with SOMEONE. Genesis 3:8 “Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as He was walking in the garden in the cool of the day.

Prayer is a continuous awareness of the presence of God
Prayer is fellowshipping with the Father – The God who is more than enough.
Develop your fellowship with the Father through frequent prayer, and not just when you are in trouble!
Prayer is not a ritual; it is the expression of your relationship with God.

Don’t worry about anything; instead go to God in prayer and with a thankful attitude with your problems and needs. He will fill you with His peace. (Philippians 4:6-7)

Every parent waits excitedly for the day when their child will first begin to talk to them. In the same way, God is waiting for you now to talk to Him. He longs to meet your needs, not only in material possessions, but emotionally and spiritually too. Tell God how much you love Him. Tell Him how wonderful you think He is. Express your gratefulness to Him in your own way. (John 15:7)


Forgive before you pray.
Pray to the Father in the name of Jesus.
Believe that you receive when you pray.
Depend on the Holy Spirit in prayer.
Pray the prayer of intercession.
Build your spirit man up by praying in the Holy Spirit.


Pray constantly and fervently. (Colossians 4:2,12)
Pray sincerely. (Psalm 17:1)
Pray with faith. (James 5:15-16)
Pray with the help of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 8:26)
Pray to the Father in the Name of Jesus. (John 16:23,24), since He is the way to the Father. (John 14:6; 1 Timothy 2:5).

Pray according to God’s will. (1 John 5:14; Jeremiah 1:12)
Do not be unsure of what you want from God (double-minded), rather be specific. (James 1:6-8)


God’s will to be done … in your life, in your family, in your church, in your city, in your nation, in the whole earth.
Matthew 6:10 “Your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.”
Provision … personal and family needs to be met.
Matthew 6:11 “Give us today our daily bread.”
Forgiveness … receive forgiveness from God and forgive those who have offended you.
Matthew 6:12 “Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.”
Victory over temptation … and protection from the devil’s schemes.
Matthew 6:13 “And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one.”

Without a doubt, YES! The more specific your prayers, the more specific the answers will be. The secret is to pray according to God’s WILL. We know His will by knowing His word. Therefore, as we pray according to His word, we know He will answer.

1 John 5:14,15 “This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us, and if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have what we asked of Him.”

REMEMBER: There are three ways in which God answers your prayers: Yes
No, and

Pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you. (Matthew 5:44; Luke 6:28)
When you pray, don’t pray to be seen, but pray to the Father in secret. (Matthew 6:5-6)
Don’t pray using vain repetitions, expecting to be heard because of the volume of your prayer. (Matthew 6:7)
Pray to the Lord of the harvest, to send for the labourers into His harvest. (Matthew 9:38; Luke 10:2)
Watch and pray, so that you do not enter into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh in weak. (Matthew 26:41; Mark 14:38; Luke 22:40,46)

Whatever you desire, when you pray, believe that you receive it, and you shall have it. (Mark 11:24)
Pray always, and do not fail (in heart) or become weary. (Luke 18:1)
Do not pray to exalt yourself. (Luke 18:10-14)
We shall pray to the Father in Jesus’ name, and the Father Himself will answer. Jesus will not ask on our behalf. (John 16 26-27)


Who God is – Your heavenly Father.
Who you are – righteous in Christ, Children of the Most High God.
Who your enemy is – satan.
How to praise and worship God.


Be specific about what you want from God. Find scriptures that clearly promise these things, and write them down. James 1:6-8.

Ask God for the things you want and believe that you have them. Speak the Word into the situation you are facing. Mark 11:23-27; Proverbs 4:20-22.

Let every thought and desire agree (believe) that you have what you ask.
Guard against thoughts and words that are contrary to the Word of God which is relevant to what you are praying for. Philippians 4:8.

Meditate constantly on the scriptures that promise you the answer to your prayer. Joshua 1:1; Proverbs 4:20-22.
Think of the goodness, love and mercy of God. Count your blessings and your faith will grow.
Start praising and thanking God, OUT LOUD, for answering your prayers.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Bethenny Getting Married

So I watched BGM and I just love it! She gives me hope that wishes can come true. First of all, I think she is an amazing woman. It really made me wonder why she was single for a long time and why her ex never proposed to her. Then she met her husband and it all made sense. In God's time, things will fall into place. I wish it will for me as well. I know there are people who end up alone in life...I dont want to be that woman. How nice it would be to find someone as loving and supportive as Bethenny's husband! I know he's one of a kind and wow he is also handsome! So yeah, I am just now drinking a glass of wine and dreaming that someday I will be as happy as she is. I want to be able to soon say that I am having the best time of my life. Until then, I will just keep on praying that it will happen.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

He's Just Not That Into Me!!!

So after Mr. Wonderful, I decided to read the book He's Just Not That Into You! I have read it before but reading it again just puts everything in a different light!

It is amazing how this book does a clear cut question and answer of common situations women go through. Yes, I should have memorized this book. I think I just might! hahaha There are of course exceptions but to be honest ladies, it all makes sense! The strangest thing is that men give mixed signals just as much as women do. I mean come on! Is there a simpler manual out there?

I have learned a lot from the book. I have made many common errors...yikes! I will try to unlearn bad behavior.

I usually make it easy for the guy to figure out I like him when I feel like he likes me. I respond to emails, texts, phone calls. You name it, I respond. I learned that we shouldnt! We should keep the men guessing and wondering if we are interested! Geez! I mean why waste time? But ok, I will start playing the game. I will not, from now on, allow the guy to sense that I am interested until...does anyone know?

Why cant it just be easy? Some people do have it easy. Meet a guy, fall inlove instantly and be in a relationship. Then before you know it, they get married, have kids and live happily ever after...wait am I awake or am I in "ideal land" I guess I am in "ideal land". In reality finding a partner in life is very difficult. Even after the wedding, it still is a constant game of maintaining desire and love. Otherwise one person turns the other way.

So yes, I am now officially lonely as the book said I would feel after learning to recognize red flags. So the problem now is how do I get out of this loneliness soon. Yes they say its better to be single but boy does it feel good to be in a relationship.

Thats all I want. It would be nice to be in a stable, long term relationship soon. Still praying ladies! Dont forget to include me in yours, maybe God will hear it =)

Thanks for you time!

Sunday, July 11, 2010


Why is it always hard to break routine? I had been used to be bombarded with constant texts from Mr. Wonderful. Now it has completely stopped. Dont get me wrong, I think the turn of events is a blessing in disguise. I havent fallen for him. I just got used to the attention. So now, it just feels so lonely not to have that routine, that attention. There has always been hesitation from the beginning so I know that it wasnt meant to happen. I am merely expressing that I am quite sad that God hasnt sent the one best suited for me. I have been and still am waiting!

I believe though that things happen for a reason and nothing is ever an accident. So maybe God is paving the way for me to be with "the one" I do hope so. Ladies, for those who believe, please include me in your prayers. I really, really want to meet the one God has made for me soon. I want to feel love again =(

Yes, I am quite feeling lonely. It is not that I miss Mr. Wonderful, I havent seen him in three weeks so it definitely isnt that. i just wonder whats next for me. Who is it? When will it happen?

I know its so obvious that I am not in the mood to write coz this sounds a bit crappy. Thanks though for listening. I really needed to vent.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010


I am soooo PMSing right now! I was about to go to bed when Mr. Wonderful sent me a text that he just got home from going out with his friends. So we exchanged texts asking each other how each one's day went when I got a "I had a great time! We should go out again soon!" then " oops sorry that was supposed to be for my friend, I need to get some sleep!" . So thats the end of that! I just texted him back " glad you had a great time. hope you can go out with your friend again soon. im doing well thanks. getting ready to get back home." No response after that. So there goes that chapter in my life. Goodbye Mr. Wonderful! I know it doesnt seem fair because I did also meet Mr. Attractive right? But if you ladies have only seen Mr. Wonderful, you wouldnt think he can hurt a fly...but hey I think his wife divorced him due to infidelity. So I guess I do need to stay away. God is good for letting me get away while I could and early enough to get away scratch free. It fizzled down as fast as it bubbled up.

Is this PMS? Maybe but the facts are not part of it. I therefore am, on to the next chapter in my life!

God is good...ALWAYS!

PMS anyone?

I really hate PMSing! Do any of you suffer from really bad PMS? I DO! I get lonely and sappy! I really hate it! Everything that bothers me gets magnified a hundredfold! I honestly dont get why we suffer and men dont! I guess they do when they are bothered by the change in behavior. It is amazing how it really does change behavior! So now, beside the fact that I am extremely feeling singlehood and the solitude it comes with, having PMS makes me want to really cry over it!!! Ayayay! I hope it goes away soon because it really feels so crappy to feel sappy!

Lyric of the day: Love wont let me wait: I need to have you next to me in more ways than wont let me wait!

Yikes I know sappy! Blame it on the hormones!!! Sorry ladies! Just needed to vent my sappy mood.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010


hello ladies! Hope you all had a good 4th of July weekend. So here it goes... the whole time I was away, Mr. Wonderful was communicating with me. Initially it was friendly until it became more of expressing that he liked me and then he started to make plans on me meeting his mom....HOLD UP, WAIT A MINUTE...Did you just say meet your mom???? I declined! I mean it may be a casual thing for him but isnt this a reflection of how he doesnt think things through? In two weeks I met the kids then two weeks after I got an invite to meet his mom! Whats next? a ring? That would be nice...just kidding. I dont know! Now I am scared that this is just a manic face on his part. Im worried that it will fizz down just as fast as it bubbled up. So im coming back Friday. He then invited me to spend a weekend with him and the kids out of town...WOAA I declined. I am soooo confused. This guy is intelligent, and still young. I dont get where he is coming up with these moves that just blows my mind coz I am having a hard time analyzing it. Does this guy like me or the idea of me being a replacement? I am soooo scared! As for Mr. Attractive, he went on vacation the day after we saw each other. It was a scheduled vacation so I didnt get to see him after that evening. He just got back today and havent heard from him so I am guessing thats that.

I miss having someone to love and be loved!!! God please send me what Im looking for today! =) You never know ladies, maybe God can hear me screaming =) In the meantime, here's a picture from my trip.

Monday, June 28, 2010


I know you all are probably thinking "this girl needs help!". I need to vent. So my friend and her boyfriend have this friend who I met last year when I visited them. Single, smart and nice guy. This year, when he found out I was here, he invited us to see a soccer game ( I am not a sporty girl ). We went and it was nice for pictures sake but I didnt understand a thing =) So after that we all went out to have drinks and went dancing. This guy was definitely interested in me. So to make the long story short, I found out from my friend's boyfriend that he was...However, her boyfriend had told him that I was seeing Mr. Wonderful. So now I look like a "player?". I told my friend's boyfriend I need to clear the situation. I have gone out on several dates, met the kids, but never even held hands or kissed him. What constitutes dating? Is physical affection affirmation of the status of your relationship? So although he is really wonderful, I really am confused of what my status is with Mr. Wonderful =( As for...lets call him Mr. Attraction he is really nice. I can sense that there really is a strong attraction between us. He held my hands while we were walking *sigh* it felt good. I dont know what it is but affection really gets a woman. Not lust! Affection. I wish Mr. Wonderful was affectionate but he's not. Maybe thats why I am analyzing the situation with him like there is no tomorrow! Its not even feeling its analyzing!

So the confusion is why did God send Mr. Attraction my way. He is not nearby, he is single and an eligible bachelor. I know he is interested, I dont want to be interested because I feel like I am cheating? I know, I know its a weird feeling. But since Mr. Wonderful introduced the kids to me, I feel like I have to be careful with my actions. AYAYAY!!! What is Mr. Attraction's purpose in my life?? I dont know ladies? I am just really confused =( I just want to be loved and to love! Reciprocated love is all I ask for!

thanks for your time!

Monday, June 21, 2010


I need to share and vent out my emotions or I will seriously go insane! So I left the country Sunday. Mr. Wonderful invited me to a fashion show on Saturday. He said he had the kids that weekend but he will try to find a baby sitter. I of course declined and said that I wouldnt want to take away from his time with them. He said it was at night anyway so they would be sleeping by then. So initially I agreed to it. I then decided that since I was leaving, I would need to do some last minute packing so it would not be practical to go out with him Saturday. He of course asked if I was available Friday, I said I was. However, Fridays during his weekends with the kids, he picks them up and drives about 3 hours and back to his house another 3 hours. So I told him it would be a little tight on his schedule so we should just see each other when I come back. He wanted to go out to dinner with me before I left so he said its all good. I agreed since I had no plans on Friday. So when he told me if I wouldnt mind that he hung out with the kids for at least an hour and have the baby sitter arrive by 8:30pm I said no worries! Here's the shocking part...he asked if I wanted to hang out WITH them while waiting for the baby sitter to arrive. It has only been two weeks!!! I didnt know what to say to it. I am fully aware he has kids but didnt know the intention behind meeting them so soon or having to meet them at all. I didnt want to hurt his feelings so I just nonchalantly said sure, sounds like fun. IT WAS THE MOST SCARY THING I have ever done! It was a first for me! I have met parents of my boyfriends before and I never flinched! This time I was just SCARED! So I tried so many ways to not make it happen. He knew how to respond to my "tricks" to get out of it. So I did end up meeting them. I saw his youngest, a girl and just absolutely fell inlove with her! I didnt know how to react but when she said hi and smiled, my heart just melted. She was just so into me! She's 4 and showed me around her room and asked about getting her nails done etc. It was just such a natural bonding moment that I was petrified! The thought that it could be a constant event in my life, crossed my mind! The boys were gracious as well. They said hi and bragged about Wii games etc. He went about his business preparing food for them etc like I was being tested as to how I was going to react to them! It honestly was awkward but like with any stressful situation, I was able to get my bearings in a very timely manner.

So the baby sitter came and before we left, the youngest asked for a hug and gave me the tightest and sweetest hug! I just didnt want to let her go! It was such a bittersweet moment for me. He never discussed it after! No mention of what do you think of the kids, nothing! As if it was just a casual encounter with them. So I of course emailed him after saying that it was such an awkward moment and that if the kids are used to meeting women he dates thats fine but that I think he needs to rethink it because Im sure it affects them greatly to see other women with their dad. He said they have never met another woman before and that I was the first....SCARED ME MORE! There are no discussions just actions! I dont know what to say! He thanked me for accepting and embracing his kids. I dont know what we are. Are we officially dating? Should I ask? By the way, he still hasnt kissed me!!! Is this a test? He introduced me to his friends after he introduced me to his kids that night! Mind you this was all one day prior to me being gone for a while. What was this move on his part? I honestly dont have a problem with the kids. I told my friend men and women are different because women can accept a man and his past as long as we are aware of the security that the man can give to us. All we really are looking for is for the man to absolutely love us and be loyal to us. So 3 kids or 12 kids, the only thing that would matter is being loved.

Am I being stupid??? Please share with me what you think. I am just simply CONFUSED!

Thursday, June 17, 2010


Theres a watch blowout and the prices are just awesome so I thought I would share =)

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


So I ended up going out with Mr. Wonderful last night. There was an event that I was going to and he wanted to join in. His schedule was hectic! He ended up able to catch up to the dinner event. It made me smile. He really had a long and tiresome day at work but managed to drive almost an hour just to be at there. I honestly had been insisting that we just see each other at a later time since there will be many more events like that one but he really insisted. So I am not sure if it was the food or me that was the reason for still going LOL. By the way, the night before he was on his way home from driving the kids back to their mom and he asked me if there was anything open around town after 9 which was the time he would be where I lived. I found a restaurant chain that was so I said there was this place thinking he needed a stop over since the drive was long. So I agreed to meet up with him at the restaurant around 9 and when I saw him I thought he was going to have dinner...he just wanted some dessert and a drink and basically just wanted to spend time together. Ok, I honestly didnt know what to feel. I am just dying thinking why does he have to be in a complex situation? So thats when I started to try to prevent him from going to the event by saying its too far for him to drive to, that he will be late for the event etc. but the man asked me not to give up on him and persisted to make an appearance! How do you not just fear for your heart????? hahaha Oh geez! really!!! I am looking forward to the day I leave for a trip so I can clear my head. I am scared to like him. Really scared!!! I know I should be. I am really quite confused though, he goes to great lengths to see me but he has never even attempted to kiss me! I just noticed that his farewell hug last night lingered a bit longer and was quite tighter than usual. I dont know ladies!!! Life would be so nice if...

Thanks again for allowing me some of your time my dear ladies!

Friday, June 11, 2010

So Nice!

Ok so I have posted that Mr. Wonderful was "wonderful" but then when Slastena (thanks dear =) !) enumerated what her friend went through, I had a realization that it was indeed a difficult situation. Like I said, on the first week we saw each other four times. The second week only once because... he has the kids this weekend so the entire weekday was spent working a lot so that the weekend would be devoted for the kids. Slastena was right. Even if he is great, I will always be put aside for the life that he had prior to his situation now. Although its admirable on his part, its not such a good feeling on my part. Rejection, is the word I despise but somehow I end up getting myself into. Its not his fault I feel rejected. He has communicated with me throughout the day until he got the kids and even set up a date for next week which I think I might decline. Then the week after that I will be out of the country for a while! That would be a nice transition I think. This situation is such a downer. It makes me think of this song by

Astrud Gilberto: So Nice. The one I found on youtube though is by Bebel Gilberto not sure how they are related but Astrud was married to her father Joao Gilberto but not sure if she's her mother. Anyway here it goes! just pause the ipod on the right so you can hear the embedded box.


Someone to hold me tight
That would be very nice
Someone to love me right
That would be very nice
Someone to understand
Each little dream in me
Someone to take my hand
To be a team with me

So nice, life would be so nice
If one day I'd find
Someone who would take my hand
And samba through life with me

Someone to cling to me
Stay with me right or wrong
Someone to sing to me
Some little samba song
Someone to take my heart
And give his heart to me
Someone who's ready to
Give love a start with me

Oh yes, that would be so nice
I could see you and me, that would be nice /Should it be you and me, I can see it would be nice!

Yeah...SO NICE INDEED when that happens for me!!! Thanks again ladies!

Thursday, June 10, 2010


So my "Tony" added me to his facebook which has my phone number. He called. It was initially a nice conversation catching up on family, friends and his wife. Then before you know it he started telling me how he liked my pictures and then he brought up the past. At this point, I seriously was uncomfortable! So I told him things are different now, we arent in the same situation as we were when we were in school, he's married and I feel awkward. That just did it! I guess now I know why my instincts have always been to stay away and remain on the friend zone. I did have regrets but now I know why I did what I did...I DO NOT REGRET NOT GOING FOR HIM anymore!!! It made me think I would have died if I was married to him and he was calling some girl from his past to reminisce and give praises to. Just wrong! The man who I was just pinning for a few hours ago based on how he treated me in the past was just blasted off my life by the past. Life is just full of irony. Now I am just thankful God made me realize why things happened and it was His way of saying that although I may not understand certain things that happen in my life, there is a reason behind it and it has always been for my own good. It takes a while for me to arrive at that realization but I am glad when the point comes when I really question, God answers loudly!

Thank you ladies!!!

Blast From the Past

One of my favorite shows has to be Who's The Boss. I just found out that they have reruns of it on the Hallmark channel. A particular episode jolted my memory of one of my friends who reminded me so much of "Tony"'s character. It was the episode where Tony said, "Angela, you deserve to be happy" then the boyfriend honks at her, obviously a rude gesture, he then said "whoever it may be". Then he says "well nice roses though(given by the boyfriend), too bad they arent pink ( her favorite color of roses). She then asked him, how do you know? He replied that she had mentioned it once... This made me think of someone from my past, a friend who was always there for me. The day the episode was shown was his birthday and so I searched him on facebook because I lost his email address and didnt want to call him. I sent him a message to greet him and ironically he told me he emailed me on one of my email address which I dont use anymore.

His message was about updates on his family who I was really close to and that he just wanted to say that he was just reminded that he knew more about me than my then boyfriend, which was so true. He also said that it was an honor and a pleasure taking care of me and spending time with me... Ok I may be wrong to pine for this guy but he used to say things like "oh I like that top, you wore it 4 years ago when we went to this restaurant" . He's not gay, he actually was such a hunk! The reason why I shut off that falling for him switch simply because I was scared he would hurt me. I knew all the women he went out with, slept with etc. We were best of friends. Ok I miss him. He did like me but I was just too scared and I was loyal to my cheating ex boyfriend.

Ok, so where am I going with this you ask. I just wanted to share that sometimes its nice to take a chance on love and risk being hurt than regret not knowing what could have been. This man has taken care of me and loved me better than anyone has. I just felt like I wasnt the hottie he usually goes for hence the fear of infidelity. However, as Slastena has said there are really bad geeky looking men out there, I dated one. So if there was something to regret this would definitely be one of them. He did tell me before he got married that he just wanted to tell me, "the woman that ive always wanted was right in front of me but I guess you were never meant to be mine" Yes my heart bled. I didnt want to respond and complicate things so I said "congratulations and I wish you happiness", hung up the phone and that's that.

What if? Yeah what if's are merely blasts from the past that can never be. That is a sad realization and boy is it a painful one!

Thanks for lending me your eyes ladies! I really needed to vent! Dont worry I wont get myself in trouble and continue communicating with him =) like I said the past that can never be!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Thank you!

I would like to sincerely thank all of you who have dropped by to read the updates and also leave wonderful comments. Everyone has been helpful in making me come to a good understanding and analysis of this unusual situation I am in. Slastena has made a good point regarding the kids being the priority and the dates cancelled, trips rescheduled, holidays rearranged and the possibility of the kids not liking the new woman in their dad's life. Wow, after having read that it just sounded so unfair huh? Women do so many things to show that they are selfless at the expense of their happiness. Sometimes I wish men had this particular gene in them...they dont. Most men who go into a relationship with a woman with kids would go into it just having a relationship with the woman with or without the kids' approval. They are able to dissociate their emotions to satisfy their need. Women on the other hand mostly have an emotional spin on everything.

I did think that I could dissociate my emotions but I realized after having read what Slastena enumerated, I might not be able to. I am looking for someone to reciprocate what I have to offer. I have so much to give and I hope the person I will end up with also does otherwise, I know my insecurities will set in and I really dislike that feeling.

The irony of all this is that I have found someone who parallels me in so many levels. Everyone who know us think we are just perfect for each other but...only because he is not officially out yet. I think its God's cruel joke on me...seriously! I havent fallen for him at all because I knew all along he was gay. I see him as a brother and never as more than that. God is funny sometimes. It seriously is such a cruel joke!

So as I laugh at God's joke on me, I still continue to pray that some miracle happens and He decides to bless me with a man who will be the best person to love me and for me to love. Until then, I will be shouting to the heavens to answer my prayer!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

4th date update

So I get a text today from Mr. Wonderful asking if I wanted to go out again, I said sure. When do you want to visit? He said tonight ok? He had to go back to work though so I texted him I was already about to have dinner so maybe some other time or maybe I can have an appetizer while he had dinner. After an hour he sent me a text that he wouldnt mind driving an hour after having a long day just to have dinner with can I resist...I said yes! He is just wonderful! I am getting scared. 4 dates in 1 week and he's really a busy man! I dont want to feel happy. I am scared and nervous! We had great conversation! We laughed and shared so many stories and he even shared his food with me =) OMG I am really scared. I dont want it to go away and I dont know what to do??? I am just going to play it chill but its hard to ignore feeling special. He does make me feel special. I guess I will trust God that He has a plan. I have yet so much to ask. Religion, relationship views etc. I just want to say, tonight I felt like someone likes me a lot... a feeling that absolutely feels amazing! So I will enjoy it tonight for "tomorrow is another day!" =)

Thanks for listening ladies!

Sunday, June 6, 2010


So Mr. Wonderful and I had a brunch date. He was of course just in jeans and a geeky polo shirt and I was in a shirt dress and heels...Oh well. So the brunch lasted 2 1/2 hours! It was fun but he didnt want the day to end so he asked if I wanted to see a movie and I said yes. We watched a comedy Get Him to the Greek, it was funny but I think the content is not for everyone. While waiting for the movie we went to a Burger King to kill time =) I think it was adorable. We ordered a sundae. The reason why I find it adorable is that we searched for a nearby theater and the closest one was 40 miles and it was in the middle of nowhere so Burger King was the only place to go to. So from a nice restaurant to a fast food chain...good sign! hahaha

Ok, I just wanted to share that we spent a total of 8 hours together, not bad right? And the nice thing is he was such a gentleman through all this...he didnt even hold my hand! I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing but he did ask me out again! So I dont know, while he was driving me home his son called him on his cell and he picked up and talked for a few minutes then told his son if he could call him back in a few minutes (after he drops me off). It then hit me!!! OMG!!! This would have been the perfect situation! But of course like with everything in my life, it wouldnt be that easy! So now I dont know if I should go out with him again or if I should just keep my distance! I back to square one! I am going to need a lot of prayer!!!

Thanks ladies for your time!


Ok so Mr. Wonderful is a geek. I met with him today for coffee. We live about an hour away from each other. He asked me what I was doing for the day and I said my parents and I were going to church and do some shopping. He asked if it happened to be on his side of the town I said yes. He said he could be where I would be if I wanted so I said yes. I said not to worry, parents wont be there hahaha. So yes, we met up for coffee at a bookstore. He was wearing a polo shirt which was too big for him, shorts and sandals. I on the other hand was wearing jeans, a nice top, wedges, and was well accessorized. hahaha So instead of getting turned off by this man, I was more amused and fascinated! He rushed to the bookstore, we had a nice conversation, I did most of the talking and he was attentively listening. He's shy and geeky but smart and attentive! We were rudely interrupted by a 2 year old boy who gave me his bottle =) It was just adorable because the boy just came up to me and wouldnt leave me alone. He then went up to Mr. Wonderful and stared at him like he was mad! If I had my Flip with me it would have been priceless!

So after scrutinizing his face while he was talking and smiling at me, I thought to myself he is the total opposite of pretty boy! He is not flirtatious nor charming and definitely not a hunk but boy did I find myself smiling and relaxed talking to him. I dont know why my guard is down when I talk to "geeks" when an ex who broke my heart and shattered it to pieces was the epitome of a geek!!!

I think I need to get my guard up, geeks arent necessarily harmless! He is such a gentleman though. I think his pacing will be slow which is what I need so its all good. It will give me enough time to size him up and back out when needed. He is not aggressive but he is attentive which is a good thing. I hope he's a different kind of geek though...I seriously could not afford another massive heartbreak!

Fingers still crossed, and wishing someone will love me soon, whoever it may be =( what a sad statement but I sincerely wish that! If only grown men will act like the 2 year old boy and just go up to me without hesitation, share with me something that he lives for so selflessly and show the other men that he is claiming me hahaha. Gosh that really was a precious moment =)

I seriously hope I find the right kind of geek or pretty boy...I hope I really find my own "Mr. Wonderful"!!!

Thanks for your time ladies!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010


just a picture of me having a bad day when I was young...seems like those days are back!

Ok, so you all know that I am single right? I havent had any luck lately. Maybe its because everybody I know is married! So here it goes, I bumped into this man, yes a man, not a boy =) He is wonderful, intelligent, funny, kind but divorced with 3 kids. He is not old, tall and not too shabby on the "looks" department. My parents will kill me when they find out though.

I dont know what to do!!! Its not like I am going to marry the guy (not yet ;) hahaha) but im just saying he is a great guy except for the baggage. Ladies... I seriously need input. Since I am on the down low with this. I cant run to any of my friends yet because honestly, they have high hopes for me to end up with someone without any baggage. So I run to you my online sisters for help. What do you think? If I was your sister what would you say? Hope you will take even just a minute to say no or yes to help me out =( I am really torn.

Thanks in advance. Here's hoping to receive some advice.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010


I know many of us follow Slastena's blog. Her blog made me start my own to tell you the truth! (Thanks Slastena!) I didnt know how to write a blog but after coming across her blog through my love for Jcrew, I finally became comfortable as to how and what to blog about.

How can someone who exudes such positive energy be under attack? I read her apology and it seriously was a testament to her character. She is selfless, kind and humble. She obviously is such a strong woman, having a wonderful career, being a great wife and mother to her family. However, I could tell from one of her responses to me that she has been hurt by some mean comments. Why do women have to pick on other women and make them feel bad? It is stressful enough to have men do that to us but ladies, we need to uphold our sisterhood and be supportive of one another. Blogging is therapeutic and its free! We need to appreciate the time that each of us put in to share a part of ourselves to friends and complete strangers. Dont take this wonderful experience away from anyone by making it an upsetting one.

Responses, comments and blogging is not an obligation it is a choice. I have more than 9000 visits but 17 followers, I rarely receive comments but I am very thankful that I have this medium to express myself.

To the "mean girls" please try to be positive! This is for you Slastena dear!

Sunday, May 23, 2010


Ok ladies, I know I already acknowledged God's goodness. However, I just wanted to say that when he doesnt answer our prayer requests, I think it is still an answer. It means that there are reasons behind why He didnt grant us what we wanted. God sees far beyond what we can and we just need to trust Him right? This is where I am right now after having an answered prayer, I got an unanswered one hahaha. How easy it would be to doubt again but I know He knows better!

Thanks for your time!


I just wanted to share my praise to God. When things seem dark and when it seems like there isnt a way out, God makes things happen. With God nothing is impossible! Thank you Lord for an answered prayer!

May your prayers be answered as well!

Have a wonderful week ladies!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Pretty Boy

K its been three weeks since I last met pretty boy...boy o boy I really cant keep my mind off him. He was just so attractive! I was just VERY attracted! I just needed to vent, I honestly havent had a huge crush in such a long time! LOL I can ladies, Im single so no harm in having one right? ;)

He is the one on the picture...lovely smile, pretty face, seductive eyes, and a sexy body. *sigh* Hope I meet someone like him again! Thanks for your time ladies. Mwah! Have a great weekend!

Monday, May 10, 2010


I apologize for the late greeting. I spent quality time with my mom and decided to give her all my attention over the weekend, thus no timely greeting for the rest of you =)

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! I hope you all had a great weekend. My mom did and it made me so happy! Here's a goofy picture. The first two pictures were taken by my mom so I posted it =)

Thursday, May 6, 2010

It sucks to be single!

Hello ladies! I know I had a post regarding me hating being single. I decided to pull it down since the chances of someone recognizing me or pretty boy is there.

I still had the urge to vent and express my frustration on the issue of being single...IT SUCKS!!!

I met a bunch of "boys" in their late 20's and yes ladies, they were boys! It hit me like a ton of bricks, 30's is the new 20's which means they were just teenagers! Yikes! The room was filled with doctors, lawyers and successful men in their respective careers but boy did they act young! I felt like I was at a frat party!!! Is it just me or weren't men in their late 20's settled and sophisticated when I was a little girl. I always thought wow how lovely to see men in their 20's acting like adults and couldnt wait to be grown up and be with one...WRONG! There has to be some environmental hit that happened which mutated the genes and caused slow development and maturity!

My gosh where are the ideal men out there??? The married ladies I met told me they are out there...where??? Do you guys know? Care to share where? I was soooo exhausted by the end of the event. I am not old but my mind is. I honestly just want someone who is settled, nice to look at, loving and loyal. I think I need to go older. There is just no looking towards the pool of young men to get what I want.

Do you ladies agree? Are men in their 20's really behaving like frat boys or was it just the crowd of people I was with?


Monday, May 3, 2010

the dress

Hello ladies! This is the dress I ended up wearing. Everyone was too tipsy to take a picture of the entire outfit =( Did I make a good choice?

Friday, April 9, 2010


Hello ladies! I just want to ask what is an appropriate attire to wear to an evening wedding held at a hotel, 400+ guests. It will be in Texas on the month of May. I dont know the couple personally. I am related to the groom and was invited by his mom. Long, short? sleeves, no sleeves? colored or black dress? Suggestions please...

Thank you. =)

This was taken on the last wedding I attended...totally different venue =)

Sunday, April 4, 2010


Happy Easter to all of you wonderful ladies! You are a blessing to me so I just want to say God bless you all!



Friday, March 26, 2010


Just wanted to share the overwhelming items on this sale! Sorry for the late post. Enjoy!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

The Lake House

Have any of you seen the movie The Lake House? Its a Sandra Bullock movie. I had it on queue on my Netflix and didnt realize it would come during this whole cheating scandal she is facing right now.

Anyway, this movie really made me sad. I am not sure if it is just hormones thats making me feel sad. The whole movie is just about being alone and having no one. I guess, I can relate to the characters in that way. I didnt realize how heavy it is to bear such an emotion. Seeing it on screen made my emotions real and tangible somehow. The question in the movie was what if there isnt anyone waiting for us at all? I mean I know most of you are married or are in a relationship but for those who are single, hasnt that thought crossed your mind? What if there is no such thing as someone out there meant to be mine? At this point in the movie, I just felt a dagger pierce my heart. What if there really isnt anyone to share life with? What if I am one of those who was just given a momentary phase to experience love then hurt and never again to experience both. Ironic that Sandra Bullock in real life, thought she had someone but in the end realized she didnt or doesnt anymore.

I know i am getting really cheezy. I never thought all the emotions I have kept in me would come rushing out just from a very plain movie. Its not like "The Notebook" that was a tearjerker. However, somehow this really hit close to heart. The emotion of existing but not belonging to anyone is overwhelming. I have not shared it with people I know but Im glad I am able to do so with all of you who dont really know me. Quiet sadness is the worse kind of sadness. I would much rather be balling but I find myself drowning in sad thoughts rather than tears .

Thanks for the time. I just needed to vent.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010


In all the great spiritual traditions, at their heart is tenderness - just to be kind inside, and then everything rights itself. Fear rests. Confusion rests." (Pamela Wilson)

W hat Love means to a 4-8 year old . . .

Slow down for three minutes to read this. It is
so worth it. Touching words from the mouth of babes. A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, 'What does love mean?'

The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think.

'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore.

So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.'

Rebecca- age 8

'W hen someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.

You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.'

Billy - age 4

'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.'

Karl - age 5

'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.'

Chrissy - age 6

'Love is what makes you smile when you're 2 tired.'

Terri - age 4

'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.'

Danny - age 7

'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.

My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss'

Emily - age 8

'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.'

Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'

Nikka - age 6

(we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'

Noelle - age 7

'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.'

Tommy - age 6

'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.

He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'

Cindy - age 8

'My mommy loves me more than anybody

You don't see anyone else kissing me to 2 sleep at night.'

Clare - age 6

'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.'

Elaine-age 5

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.'

Chris - age 7

'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.'

Mary Ann - age 4

'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.' jajaja.../

Lauren - age 4

'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.' (what an image)

Karen - age 7

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'

Mark - age 6

'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.'

Jessica - age 8

And the final one

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.

When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,
'Nothing, I just helped him cry'

When there is nothing left but God, that is when you find out that God is all you need. Take 60 seconds and give this a shot! All you do is simply say the following small prayer for the person who sent you this.

Heavenly Father, please bless all my friends in whatever it is that You know they may be needing this day! And may their life be full of Your peace, prosperity and power as he/she seeks to have a closer relationship with You. Amen.