Saturday, November 13, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010
Before all the stressful time of surgery. I was able to unwind with my best friend in a spa and winery in Canada. I just absolutely loved their wine! I wore this faux fur vest which I thought was just fun! Thought Id share my pick for fun faux fur for this fall.
Have a great weekend ladies! Happy Halloween!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Pray that she realizes that life is too precious to just toy with it like that and that she quits smoking and gets the procedure done so that her life will be prolonged. Long enough to see me get married and have children. Please also pray for strength for me because I am so stressed out. I am so scared of losing her!
Ladies please pray for her and me. Thank you so much!
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Here's another great sale for the L.A.M.B fans... I adore Gwen Stefani!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
So remember Mr. Attractive? I was really attracted to this guy and most specially after my friend told me more about him. So we exchanged a couple of emails but thats it. I was disappointed a bit because I really liked what I got to find out about him. Apparently, his friend told my friend that there is no point to getting to know each other more because he is in Canada and I am not, that really sucks. Thank goodness I read He's Just That Not Into Me, coz I dont need to figure out why...HES JUST THAT NOT INTO ME!!! My Meryl Streep song is so befitting my sentiment right now!
So it became whats wrong with me? It really makes me wonder. Its like everything about me becomes inconvenient, my height, 5'6 ( too tall for Asians, not too tall for everyone else), my built( I have hips that dont lie =), my religion(I am Catholic), my career choice, my race, my taste in clothing (men think I am high maintenance), my confidence, my humor, my personality( I tend to be likeable but when my date's friends love me more than him, the guy tends to just hate it!
I seriously dont know what to do anymore! I am not socially inept. I am very presentable and I know how to listen. Why havent I found the one yet??? GOD WHATS YOUR PLAN FOR ME???
Ladies, any guess as to why? I seriously am feeling my singlehood right now. I am actually in a state of panic. It is actually like a Carrie moment, realizing and fearing if I will be alone...I dont want to be alone!
ok so I just needed to vent. But seriously ladies, I need your advice! I am attracted to Mr. Attractive but I dont want to run after him. But why do other women set their eyes on someone and they really get out there to get it and it works! I cant!!! Should I? Or should I just move on to the next. But I want to get to know him better though. I dont know... I am really torn. My being coy about things hasnt gotten me anywhere.
Ladies, opinion please!!! I know you probably are tired hearing my stories but a sister really needs your help...pretty please???!!!
SPEAKING TO GOD – PRAYING
Most people think they don’t know how to pray. They think that prayer is another language that they must learn. The truth is, we were created and designed for fellowship with God, so prayer is a NATURAL thing to do. It only becomes difficult when we complicate it for ourselves.
WHAT IS PRAYER?
Prayer, in its most simple form is you speaking to God in your own words, and communicating with Him. God, your Father, is waiting for you to communicate with Him and make known your feelings, desires and needs. You can go to Him freely with your difficulties and problems, in good times and in bad.
Prayer is not doing something, it is being with SOMEONE. Genesis 3:8 “Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as He was walking in the garden in the cool of the day.
Prayer is a continuous awareness of the presence of God
Prayer is fellowshipping with the Father – The God who is more than enough.
Develop your fellowship with the Father through frequent prayer, and not just when you are in trouble!
Prayer is not a ritual; it is the expression of your relationship with God.
PRAY EVERY DAY
Don’t worry about anything; instead go to God in prayer and with a thankful attitude with your problems and needs. He will fill you with His peace. (Philippians 4:6-7)
Every parent waits excitedly for the day when their child will first begin to talk to them. In the same way, God is waiting for you now to talk to Him. He longs to meet your needs, not only in material possessions, but emotionally and spiritually too. Tell God how much you love Him. Tell Him how wonderful you think He is. Express your gratefulness to Him in your own way. (John 15:7)
SIX IMPORTANT THINGS TO REMEMBER IN PRAYER
Forgive before you pray.
Pray to the Father in the name of Jesus.
Believe that you receive when you pray.
Depend on the Holy Spirit in prayer.
Pray the prayer of intercession.
Build your spirit man up by praying in the Holy Spirit.
HOW SHOULD I PRAY?
Pray constantly and fervently. (Colossians 4:2,12)
Pray sincerely. (Psalm 17:1)
Pray with faith. (James 5:15-16)
Pray with the help of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 8:26)
Pray to the Father in the Name of Jesus. (John 16:23,24), since He is the way to the Father. (John 14:6; 1 Timothy 2:5).
Pray according to God’s will. (1 John 5:14; Jeremiah 1:12)
Do not be unsure of what you want from God (double-minded), rather be specific. (James 1:6-8)
WHAT DO I PRAY FOR?
God’s will to be done … in your life, in your family, in your church, in your city, in your nation, in the whole earth.
Matthew 6:10 “Your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.”
Provision … personal and family needs to be met.
Matthew 6:11 “Give us today our daily bread.”
Forgiveness … receive forgiveness from God and forgive those who have offended you.
Matthew 6:12 “Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.”
Victory over temptation … and protection from the devil’s schemes.
Matthew 6:13 “And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one.”
DOES GOD REALLY ANSWER PRAYER?
Without a doubt, YES! The more specific your prayers, the more specific the answers will be. The secret is to pray according to God’s WILL. We know His will by knowing His word. Therefore, as we pray according to His word, we know He will answer.
1 John 5:14,15 “This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us, and if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have what we asked of Him.”
REMEMBER: There are three ways in which God answers your prayers: Yes
WHAT JESUS SAID ABOUT PRAYER
Pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you. (Matthew 5:44; Luke 6:28)
When you pray, don’t pray to be seen, but pray to the Father in secret. (Matthew 6:5-6)
Don’t pray using vain repetitions, expecting to be heard because of the volume of your prayer. (Matthew 6:7)
Pray to the Lord of the harvest, to send for the labourers into His harvest. (Matthew 9:38; Luke 10:2)
Watch and pray, so that you do not enter into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh in weak. (Matthew 26:41; Mark 14:38; Luke 22:40,46)
Whatever you desire, when you pray, believe that you receive it, and you shall have it. (Mark 11:24)
Pray always, and do not fail (in heart) or become weary. (Luke 18:1)
Do not pray to exalt yourself. (Luke 18:10-14)
We shall pray to the Father in Jesus’ name, and the Father Himself will answer. Jesus will not ask on our behalf. (John 16 26-27)
FOR YOUR PRAYER LIFE TO BE EFFECTIVE
Who God is – Your heavenly Father.
Who you are – righteous in Christ, Children of the Most High God.
Who your enemy is – satan.
How to praise and worship God.
SEVEN STEPS TO ANSWERED PRAYER
Be specific about what you want from God. Find scriptures that clearly promise these things, and write them down. James 1:6-8.
Ask God for the things you want and believe that you have them. Speak the Word into the situation you are facing. Mark 11:23-27; Proverbs 4:20-22.
Let every thought and desire agree (believe) that you have what you ask.
Guard against thoughts and words that are contrary to the Word of God which is relevant to what you are praying for. Philippians 4:8.
Meditate constantly on the scriptures that promise you the answer to your prayer. Joshua 1:1; Proverbs 4:20-22.
Think of the goodness, love and mercy of God. Count your blessings and your faith will grow.
Start praising and thanking God, OUT LOUD, for answering your prayers.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
It is amazing how this book does a clear cut question and answer of common situations women go through. Yes, I should have memorized this book. I think I just might! hahaha There are of course exceptions but to be honest ladies, it all makes sense! The strangest thing is that men give mixed signals just as much as women do. I mean come on! Is there a simpler manual out there?
I have learned a lot from the book. I have made many common errors...yikes! I will try to unlearn bad behavior.
I usually make it easy for the guy to figure out I like him when I feel like he likes me. I respond to emails, texts, phone calls. You name it, I respond. I learned that we shouldnt! We should keep the men guessing and wondering if we are interested! Geez! I mean why waste time? But ok, I will start playing the game. I will not, from now on, allow the guy to sense that I am interested until...does anyone know?
Why cant it just be easy? Some people do have it easy. Meet a guy, fall inlove instantly and be in a relationship. Then before you know it, they get married, have kids and live happily ever after...wait am I awake or am I in "ideal land" I guess I am in "ideal land". In reality finding a partner in life is very difficult. Even after the wedding, it still is a constant game of maintaining desire and love. Otherwise one person turns the other way.
So yes, I am now officially lonely as the book said I would feel after learning to recognize red flags. So the problem now is how do I get out of this loneliness soon. Yes they say its better to be single but boy does it feel good to be in a relationship.
Thats all I want. It would be nice to be in a stable, long term relationship soon. Still praying ladies! Dont forget to include me in yours, maybe God will hear it =)
Thanks for you time!
Sunday, July 11, 2010
I believe though that things happen for a reason and nothing is ever an accident. So maybe God is paving the way for me to be with "the one" I do hope so. Ladies, for those who believe, please include me in your prayers. I really, really want to meet the one God has made for me soon. I want to feel love again =(
Yes, I am quite feeling lonely. It is not that I miss Mr. Wonderful, I havent seen him in three weeks so it definitely isnt that. i just wonder whats next for me. Who is it? When will it happen?
I know its so obvious that I am not in the mood to write coz this sounds a bit crappy. Thanks though for listening. I really needed to vent.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Is this PMS? Maybe but the facts are not part of it. I therefore am, on to the next chapter in my life!
God is good...ALWAYS!
Lyric of the day: Love wont let me wait: I need to have you next to me in more ways than one...love wont let me wait!
Yikes I know sappy! Blame it on the hormones!!! Sorry ladies! Just needed to vent my sappy mood.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
hello ladies! Hope you all had a good 4th of July weekend. So here it goes... the whole time I was away, Mr. Wonderful was communicating with me. Initially it was friendly until it became more of expressing that he liked me and then he started to make plans on me meeting his mom....HOLD UP, WAIT A MINUTE...Did you just say meet your mom???? I declined! I mean it may be a casual thing for him but isnt this a reflection of how he doesnt think things through? In two weeks I met the kids then two weeks after I got an invite to meet his mom! Whats next? a ring? That would be nice...just kidding. I dont know! Now I am scared that this is just a manic face on his part. Im worried that it will fizz down just as fast as it bubbled up. So im coming back Friday. He then invited me to spend a weekend with him and the kids out of town...WOAA I declined. I am soooo confused. This guy is intelligent, and still young. I dont get where he is coming up with these moves that just blows my mind coz I am having a hard time analyzing it. Does this guy like me or the idea of me being a replacement? I am soooo scared! As for Mr. Attractive, he went on vacation the day after we saw each other. It was a scheduled vacation so I didnt get to see him after that evening. He just got back today and havent heard from him so I am guessing thats that.
I miss having someone to love and be loved!!! God please send me what Im looking for today! =) You never know ladies, maybe God can hear me screaming =) In the meantime, here's a picture from my trip.
Monday, June 28, 2010
So the confusion is why did God send Mr. Attraction my way. He is not nearby, he is single and an eligible bachelor. I know he is interested, I dont want to be interested because I feel like I am cheating? I know, I know its a weird feeling. But since Mr. Wonderful introduced the kids to me, I feel like I have to be careful with my actions. AYAYAY!!! What is Mr. Attraction's purpose in my life?? I dont know ladies? I am just really confused =( I just want to be loved and to love! Reciprocated love is all I ask for!
thanks for your time!
Monday, June 21, 2010
So the baby sitter came and before we left, the youngest asked for a hug and gave me the tightest and sweetest hug! I just didnt want to let her go! It was such a bittersweet moment for me. He never discussed it after! No mention of what do you think of the kids, nothing! As if it was just a casual encounter with them. So I of course emailed him after saying that it was such an awkward moment and that if the kids are used to meeting women he dates thats fine but that I think he needs to rethink it because Im sure it affects them greatly to see other women with their dad. He said they have never met another woman before and that I was the first....SCARED ME MORE! There are no discussions just actions! I dont know what to say! He thanked me for accepting and embracing his kids. I dont know what we are. Are we officially dating? Should I ask? By the way, he still hasnt kissed me!!! Is this a test? He introduced me to his friends after he introduced me to his kids that night! Mind you this was all one day prior to me being gone for a while. What was this move on his part? I honestly dont have a problem with the kids. I told my friend men and women are different because women can accept a man and his past as long as we are aware of the security that the man can give to us. All we really are looking for is for the man to absolutely love us and be loyal to us. So 3 kids or 12 kids, the only thing that would matter is being loved.
Am I being stupid??? Please share with me what you think. I am just simply CONFUSED!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Thanks again for allowing me some of your time my dear ladies!
Friday, June 11, 2010
Astrud Gilberto: So Nice. The one I found on youtube though is by Bebel Gilberto not sure how they are related but Astrud was married to her father Joao Gilberto but not sure if she's her mother. Anyway here it goes! just pause the ipod on the right so you can hear the embedded box.
Someone to hold me tight
That would be very nice
Someone to love me right
That would be very nice
Someone to understand
Each little dream in me
Someone to take my hand
To be a team with me
So nice, life would be so nice
If one day I'd find
Someone who would take my hand
And samba through life with me
Someone to cling to me
Stay with me right or wrong
Someone to sing to me
Some little samba song
Someone to take my heart
And give his heart to me
Someone who's ready to
Give love a start with me
Oh yes, that would be so nice
I could see you and me, that would be nice /Should it be you and me, I can see it would be nice!
Yeah...SO NICE INDEED when that happens for me!!! Thanks again ladies!
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Thank you ladies!!!
His message was about updates on his family who I was really close to and that he just wanted to say that he was just reminded that he knew more about me than my then boyfriend, which was so true. He also said that it was an honor and a pleasure taking care of me and spending time with me... Ok I may be wrong to pine for this guy but he used to say things like "oh I like that top, you wore it 4 years ago when we went to this restaurant" . He's not gay, he actually was such a hunk! The reason why I shut off that falling for him switch simply because I was scared he would hurt me. I knew all the women he went out with, slept with etc. We were best of friends. Ok I miss him. He did like me but I was just too scared and I was loyal to my cheating ex boyfriend.
Ok, so where am I going with this you ask. I just wanted to share that sometimes its nice to take a chance on love and risk being hurt than regret not knowing what could have been. This man has taken care of me and loved me better than anyone has. I just felt like I wasnt the hottie he usually goes for hence the fear of infidelity. However, as Slastena has said there are really bad geeky looking men out there, I dated one. So if there was something to regret this would definitely be one of them. He did tell me before he got married that he just wanted to tell me, "the woman that ive always wanted was right in front of me but I guess you were never meant to be mine" Yes my heart bled. I didnt want to respond and complicate things so I said "congratulations and I wish you happiness", hung up the phone and that's that.
What if? Yeah what if's are merely blasts from the past that can never be. That is a sad realization and boy is it a painful one!
Thanks for lending me your eyes ladies! I really needed to vent! Dont worry I wont get myself in trouble and continue communicating with him =) like I said the past that can never be!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
I did think that I could dissociate my emotions but I realized after having read what Slastena enumerated, I might not be able to. I am looking for someone to reciprocate what I have to offer. I have so much to give and I hope the person I will end up with also does otherwise, I know my insecurities will set in and I really dislike that feeling.
The irony of all this is that I have found someone who parallels me in so many levels. Everyone who know us think we are just perfect for each other but...only because he is not officially out yet. I think its God's cruel joke on me...seriously! I havent fallen for him at all because I knew all along he was gay. I see him as a brother and never as more than that. God is funny sometimes. It seriously is such a cruel joke!
So as I laugh at God's joke on me, I still continue to pray that some miracle happens and He decides to bless me with a man who will be the best person to love me and for me to love. Until then, I will be shouting to the heavens to answer my prayer!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Thanks for listening ladies!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Ok, I just wanted to share that we spent a total of 8 hours together, not bad right? And the nice thing is he was such a gentleman through all this...he didnt even hold my hand! I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing but he did ask me out again! So I dont know, while he was driving me home his son called him on his cell and he picked up and talked for a few minutes then told his son if he could call him back in a few minutes (after he drops me off). It then hit me!!! OMG!!! This would have been the perfect situation! But of course like with everything in my life, it wouldnt be that easy! So now I dont know if I should go out with him again or if I should just keep my distance! I know...im back to square one! I am going to need a lot of prayer!!!
Thanks ladies for your time!
So after scrutinizing his face while he was talking and smiling at me, I thought to myself he is the total opposite of pretty boy! He is not flirtatious nor charming and definitely not a hunk but boy did I find myself smiling and relaxed talking to him. I dont know why my guard is down when I talk to "geeks" when an ex who broke my heart and shattered it to pieces was the epitome of a geek!!!
I think I need to get my guard up, geeks arent necessarily harmless! He is such a gentleman though. I think his pacing will be slow which is what I need so its all good. It will give me enough time to size him up and back out when needed. He is not aggressive but he is attentive which is a good thing. I hope he's a different kind of geek though...I seriously could not afford another massive heartbreak!
Fingers still crossed, and wishing someone will love me soon, whoever it may be =( what a sad statement but I sincerely wish that! If only grown men will act like the 2 year old boy and just go up to me without hesitation, share with me something that he lives for so selflessly and show the other men that he is claiming me hahaha. Gosh that really was a precious moment =)
I seriously hope I find the right kind of geek or pretty boy...I hope I really find my own "Mr. Wonderful"!!!
Thanks for your time ladies!
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
just a picture of me having a bad day when I was young...seems like those days are back!
Ok, so you all know that I am single right? I havent had any luck lately. Maybe its because everybody I know is married! So here it goes, I bumped into this man, yes a man, not a boy =) He is wonderful, intelligent, funny, kind but divorced with 3 kids. He is not old, tall and not too shabby on the "looks" department. My parents will kill me when they find out though.
I dont know what to do!!! Its not like I am going to marry the guy (not yet ;) hahaha) but im just saying he is a great guy except for the baggage. Ladies... I seriously need input. Since I am on the down low with this. I cant run to any of my friends yet because honestly, they have high hopes for me to end up with someone without any baggage. So I run to you my online sisters for help. What do you think? If I was your sister what would you say? Hope you will take even just a minute to say no or yes to help me out =( I am really torn.
Thanks in advance. Here's hoping to receive some advice.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
How can someone who exudes such positive energy be under attack? I read her apology and it seriously was a testament to her character. She is selfless, kind and humble. She obviously is such a strong woman, having a wonderful career, being a great wife and mother to her family. However, I could tell from one of her responses to me that she has been hurt by some mean comments. Why do women have to pick on other women and make them feel bad? It is stressful enough to have men do that to us but ladies, we need to uphold our sisterhood and be supportive of one another. Blogging is therapeutic and its free! We need to appreciate the time that each of us put in to share a part of ourselves to friends and complete strangers. Dont take this wonderful experience away from anyone by making it an upsetting one.
Responses, comments and blogging is not an obligation it is a choice. I have more than 9000 visits but 17 followers, I rarely receive comments but I am very thankful that I have this medium to express myself.
To the "mean girls" please try to be positive! This is for you Slastena dear!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Thanks for your time!
May your prayers be answered as well!
Have a wonderful week ladies!
Friday, May 21, 2010
He is the one on the picture...lovely smile, pretty face, seductive eyes, and a sexy body. *sigh* Hope I meet someone like him again! Thanks for your time ladies. Mwah! Have a great weekend!
Monday, May 10, 2010
I apologize for the late greeting. I spent quality time with my mom and decided to give her all my attention over the weekend, thus no timely greeting for the rest of you =)
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! I hope you all had a great weekend. My mom did and it made me so happy! Here's a goofy picture. The first two pictures were taken by my mom so I posted it =)
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
Hello ladies! I just want to ask what is an appropriate attire to wear to an evening wedding held at a hotel, 400+ guests. It will be in Texas on the month of May. I dont know the couple personally. I am related to the groom and was invited by his mom. Long, short? sleeves, no sleeves? colored or black dress? Suggestions please...
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010